I got into the habit of picking up myself when I have fallen  you've showed me that I walk in this path alone  These tears that I've cried trying to get you to understand me  ended up watering my skin and building the foundation  to love myself again  I got into the habit of knowing my worth  it came from losing myself with you and crying for you to love me  crying for you to care and take me into consideration  Telling you, yelling at you to care as much as I do turned the do to a did  and I started loving myself the way I begged you to love me  "Don't do what you don't want done to you"  That's what everyone grows up on knowing That's what allowed me to grow pure and loving  To give 110% in anything I run into  But with you I gave 150%  It was scary  But it also got me into the habit of opening myself up to really caring Even though, I went into this blindly and opened myself up fully Even though, you hurt me and p

INSECURITIES IT COMES FROM THE PAIN OF GROWING UP WITHOUT A COMPLETE FAMILY  FROM BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP ONE DAY TO A NEW ONE THE NEXT  FROM LOVING ONE PERSON AND GETTING HURT  FROM BETRAYAL  FROM FINDING ACCEPTANCE IN THE WRONG PLACES  FROM KEEPING YOUR MOUTH SHUT WHEN YOU SHOULD'VE OPENED UP  IT COMES FROM BEING THE ONLY ONE THERE FOR YOUR FAMILY AND FEELING ALONE WHEN YOU NEED THEM  THE INSECURITIES BUILD OVERNIGHT WITHOUT US KNOWING  PEOPLE THINK IF WE DON'T FOCUS ON THEM THEN THEY WON'T COME UP  BUT THEY BECOME STRONGER TO THE POINT WHERE YOUR INSECURITIES SHOW EVEN WHEN THE PERSON YOU ARE WITH IS JUST BREATHING DIFFERENTLY  THIS IS NOT YOUR FLAW. THIS IS NOT YOUR UGLY SIDE. THIS IS JUST A BUMP IN THE ROAD THAT COMES UP AS YOU DRIVE DOWN THE PATH OF LIFE. YOU CAN FIX THIS AND SMOOTH OUT YOUR ROAD. BUT THIS MEANS YOU NEED TO COMMIT TO YOURSELF FULL-TIME  THIS MEANS DIGGING DEEP INTO WHAT REALLY HARMS YOUR MIND AND FIXING IT  YOU CAN NOT LOVE A PERSON 1