THANK YOU

I got into the habit of picking up myself when I have fallen 

you've showed me that I walk in this path alone 

These tears that I've cried trying to get you to understand me 

ended up watering my skin and building the foundation 

to love myself again 

I got into the habit of knowing my worth 

it came from losing myself with you and crying for you to love me 

crying for you to care and take me into consideration 

Telling you, yelling at you to care as much as I do turned the do to a did 

and I started loving myself the way I begged you to love me 

"Don't do what you don't want done to you" 

That's what everyone grows up on knowing

That's what allowed me to grow pure and loving 

To give 110% in anything I run into 

But with you I gave 150% 

It was scary 

But it also got me into the habit of opening myself up to really caring

Even though, I went into this blindly and opened myself up fully
Even though, you hurt me and put your knives through my heart
over and over
even though you harmed my mental and had me feeling like this was my fault
you pushed me away,
 but what you didn't know is that last push turned me around
turn me around to walk out of the path we started and I was so strong on keeping
as I walked down this old path of memory lane going to my new destination I felt this guilt
Guilt that all these memories I was seeing for the last time were my fault this ended
My mind and heart felt heavy the first couple of steps
It leads me to tell myself to turn around
But for some reason, I don't
I keep going
Just as I thought those steps were always going to be heavy, I somehow feel relieved
I feel the thoughts and fear of living without you start to be okay
I understand
As much as I want you and want us
I need me more
Although I'll miss this memory
But that is all this is anymore
MEMORIES
And the light that I thought I saw on our path showed brighter on the ending of this one
Then I realized
Being with you was great, it had its perks
But the light that was shown on our path was just a reflection of what I was walking away from
You were the devils right hand allowing me to believe I was reaching the peace
I should've realized it wasn't true when you blocked what the light was "Showing" on our path
But I forgive you
More because you somehow showed an act of kindness which turned me around to see my true light
ME
I was waiting for me down this path
I was the one I needed to be with
Not you
Me
So thank you
because even though this was a long and hard lesson to learn
The other side of this path feels so great
and I showed me that I could love me so much more than I wanted you and everyone to