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FIX IT TO WIN IT

INSECURITIES
IT COMES FROM THE PAIN OF GROWING UP WITHOUT A COMPLETE FAMILY 
FROM BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP ONE DAY TO A NEW ONE THE NEXT 
FROM LOVING ONE PERSON AND GETTING HURT 
FROM BETRAYAL 
FROM FINDING ACCEPTANCE IN THE WRONG PLACES 
FROM KEEPING YOUR MOUTH SHUT WHEN YOU SHOULD'VE OPENED UP 
IT COMES FROM BEING THE ONLY ONE THERE FOR YOUR FAMILY AND FEELING ALONE WHEN YOU NEED THEM 
THE INSECURITIES BUILD OVERNIGHT
WITHOUT US KNOWING 
PEOPLE THINK IF WE DON'T FOCUS ON THEM THEN THEY WON'T COME UP 
BUT THEY BECOME STRONGER TO THE POINT WHERE YOUR INSECURITIES SHOW EVEN WHEN THE PERSON YOU ARE WITH IS JUST BREATHING DIFFERENTLY 
THIS IS NOT YOUR FLAW. THIS IS NOT YOUR UGLY SIDE.
THIS IS JUST A BUMP IN THE ROAD THAT COMES UP AS YOU DRIVE DOWN THE PATH OF LIFE.
YOU CAN FIX THIS AND SMOOTH OUT YOUR ROAD.
BUT THIS MEANS YOU NEED TO COMMIT TO YOURSELF FULL-TIME 
THIS MEANS DIGGING DEEP INTO WHAT REALLY HARMS YOUR MIND AND FIXING IT 
YOU CAN NOT LOVE A PERSON 100% UNTIL YOU LOVE YOURSELF 110%
SOME MAY SAY "I LOVE THAT PERSON SO MUCH THAT I STOPPED HATING MYSELF" 
BUT WHAT IF THEY LEAVE?
WHAT IF THE CYCLE KEEPS CONTINUING? YOU WILL KEEP BEING ALONE, YOU WILL KEEP FEELING SORRY. YOU WILL KEEP LOSING YOURSELF AND LET YOUR INSECURITIES GROW STRONGER
DO YOU REALIZE YOU CAN LOVE SOMEONE SO MUCH AND AS SOON AS THEY DO SOMETHING THAT TRIGGERS AN INSECURITY THEN YOU LOOK AT THEM WITH SO MUCH HURT OR YOU EVEN START TO HATE THEM.
THAT'S NOT LOVING THEM SO MUCH 
THAT'S NOT LOVING YOU ENOUGH TO HEAL YOU 
JUMPING FROM RELATIONSHIP TO RELATIONSHIP WILL ONLY SATISFY LONELINESS 
RELATIONSHIPS END WITH PEOPLE. BUT WHAT DOESN'T AND SHOULD NEVER END IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR MIND, BODY, AND SOUL.
ONCE YOUR MIND IS NOT AT PEACE IT TRIGGERS YOUR WHOLE BODY TO BE UNEASY, LEAVING YOUR SOUL TO BE RESTLESS WHICH CAUSES HARM TO THE MIND 
ITS A CYCLE 
IN ORDER TO BE AT PEACE WITH EVERYTHING, WITH YOURSELF, WITH YOUR LIFE, WITH YOUR RELATIONSHIP, YOU NEED TO BE AT PEACE WITH YOUR MIND.
YOU NEED TO FORGIVE YOURSELF 
YOU NEED TO NATURE YOUR INSECURITIES TO THEN WEAKEN THEN AND KILL THEM 
I AM GOING TO KEEP SAYING THIS AS YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT IN ORDER TO BE HAPPY WITH YOURSELF AND IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP 
ONCE YOU FIX YOUR INSECURITIES AND TRULY LOVE YOURSELF THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN LOSE
BREAK-UPS CAN SUCK AFTER THAT 
BUT YOU WILL NOT LOSE SENSE OF WHO YOU ARE AND THE LOVE YOU WERE GIVING YOU BEFORE ALLOWING THEM TO GIVE TO YOU 
FIX IT TO WIN IT!!

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