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You Do Not Get To Blame

You do not get to blame her for why she turned cold
That stems off of always forgiving you while you continue to hurt her 
For always smiling while in tears & telling you it’s okay for another mistake you made 
You do not get to blame her for why she shuts you out 
It comes from being tired of trying to open up to you and you closed your doors on her 
You do not get to blame her for her new beauty
She started finding herself after losing herself with you & to you 
She grew tired of telling you to love her 
She outgrew you 
She grew into herself 
She breathed herself in & let herself be her 
The clothes that showed off her legs, enhanced her breasts, outlined her curves
The clothes she didn’t believe she could wear due to you doubting her, insulting her because of your fears..
Those clothes she fit perfect 
All the compliments that she wanted to hear from you 
The mooneyed looks she expected to get from you
“YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL” 
All the goods she got from herself not you
So you don’t get to blame her for becoming independent
You don’t get to blame her for her happy weight gain 
You don’t get to blame her for her strong attitude 
Above all you don’t get to blame her for outgrowing you 
But what you can blame her for is her not seeing she deserves better than you sooner 
But by the time you realize that you should’ve changed 
She won’t be there for the blame 

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