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The Golden Warrior (Inspired by my Fiancé Chelsea)

She's Strong 
Because she's been vulnerable to the point of breaking 
She's so isolated 
Because she's felt alone while "Loving" someone 
She's guarded 
Because she's scared to allow someone to come in, get to know her 
and leave her with broken pieces of her heart to make whole ... Again 
She's angry 
Because she is so used to the heartache and tears 
She's a double standard 
Because she wants to love and feel love but doesn't want anyone to get near her heart 
She taught herself 
Raised herself 
Shaped herself to be what she is today 
She's confused 
Because if something good happens to her and stays 
she wonders what did she do to get it 
and how long it will stay 
She wants to be able to let it all go and let it all in 
but she doesn't know she's different 
She's been convenient for everyone  
until they don't need her 
She's wiped her tears 
She got herself together 
She made herself independent 
so when it comes to depending on someone, she denies it 
She doesn't allows want to be this way 
Angry 
Uncomfortable 
She wants to grow from what tortured her 
She wants to be cautious but still allow someone to be  close 
She wants to lay her head on someone's chest and feel safe 
Not lay in bed and wonder why what she brings to the table wasn't enough to consume
She wants to start new 
Close up the scars 
Open her mind to new love 
To a new meaning to happiness without relying on herself to make it happen 


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