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It Was My Fault Too

If I hadn’t let you in so early 
& if I had taken shit slowly 
And did not quickly put you as the center of my world 
then I wouldn’t be so disappointed in you & myself
See it’s my fault too. 
I automatically gave you my heart 
I wanted to forget the tears, fears, scars & pain from my past.
I automatically gave you my trust knowing what I’ve been through.
Instead of proceeding with caution. 
I zoomed in.
Vulnerable, eager to just love someone new & eager to be happy with someone else 
Forget my past 
Forget what I have been through 
I just wanted to love
& be in love
All because I wasn’t happy with myself 
So, it’s not all your fault that you hurt me
It’s not all your fault that you broke me 
& it’s not all your fault that I cried myself to sleep last night from the pain 
It’s my fault too

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