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What?... You didn't know?

She's dismissive 
She's open 
She's a pessimist   
She's an opportunist 
She's giving 
She's selfish
It's weird how in the beginning it was easy to figure her out 
How when it was hot and heavy she was this perfect girl
She was the one who was so calm, happy, and supportive
At times you notice when she was out of it
But addressing it seemed stupid because she snapped right back 
How come now she's different?
The snap backs took longer to come in effect 
The smile that made you fall in love seemed to barely show now
What is going on with her?
Instead of only getting to know what made her happy you should've wondered what harmed her
Yes it is understandable that the past has nothing to do with you and she may have seemed to have it all figured out and show she's fine...
but she's human..
What?... You didn't know?...
She decided to make it look like she's okay all this time so you couldn't see the baggage she carried...
She wanted to show true strength in the beginning, not knowing it wouldn't last because your warm hugs and supportive talks 
your power over her unwillingly allowed her scars to show and her heart to grow
Her fear before you was that she'll never be happy 
Her fear during you is that you'll leave 
Her fear now is that you'll know the real her and you will do the same thing 
The one where she gave her heart to help her lovers 
She healed and in return she got hurt
She gave away her secrets in hopes to be understood 
Understood as to why she acted the way she did 
Instead she was judged
she was open to understanding their agony 
they were dismissive to understanding hers
she was patient when dealing with their scars, their PTSD of pain 
They were intolerant to hers 
In fact they craved her pure hearted blood using the knife of betrayal 
Yet she remained strong through it all
She survived 
Her game plan was to be there for you
To love you 
To cherish you 
To heal you 
It was never to open up and have you slowly figure her out 
How you knew some of her story with her body language
You knew she was still healing from some things 
Things that left her soul for dead
You know this
So when you see her acting different don't dismiss it 
let her scars breath so you can be by her side as she allows it to officially heal 
Be the person she is
Don't heal her
Just stay by her side as she heals herself 
Don't judge her
Her insecurities, depression and over thinking 
Misery doesn't define her 
The action of mending herself does
What?... You didn't know?

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